Wow...I cant believe it has been 2 months since I've written anything. I guess I got distracted by life! Lots of good and not so good things have happened in the past 2 months. Some relationships ended, some began, others have been repositioned. It's spring time now and thank goodness winter is over! I know we should be thankful for all things created by God, and I know Winter served a purpose in my life...but my favorite time of year is Spring! It doesn't have the sweltering heat of Summer and it doesn't have the bitter cold of Winter. I also love Fall. I love Spring and Fall the best, because you get to see so many beautiful changes! Leaves changing colors in Fall, flowers blooming in Spring. In Fall it seems that we are settling down from the fun and hectic times of summer and in spring we are gearing up from the slumber and cold of winter. Also, spring brings about both the literal and figurative urge for "Spring Cleaning"! Let's just say I've been doing a better job of my figurative spring cleaning ( separating from people with negative energy, establishing better boundaries, eliminating people who dont serve a purpose in my life, and trying like hell to let go of the past!) than my literal spring clean (umm...there's still alot of crap in my apartment! LOL). Anyway, I am hopeful about what this spring will bring. A dear friend of mine is truly seeing God's love and promises manifested as she prepares to bring life to the world! My mother is venturing out as an entrepreneur, she is not only establishing a business but she is also providing a ministry (she doesn't know it yet, well maybe she does, but I know she didn't plan it). As for me, I am about to start yet another new chapter in my life. It's time to close the book on this one. It has been filled with love, pain, mistakes, regrets, transgressions, accomplishments, failures, reconnections, disconnections, new connections, but most of all I can see where it has been filled with tremendous growth. I used to feel like in the past few years I have experienced the greatest failures in my life, and trust there were some big falls, but now I finally see how God had to move in MY life so that I could return my focus to HIM. I see how he never leaves nor forsakes me. I see how out of my pain came so much strength. I see how things that happened in my life led to me reconnecting with some friends. I must say I have some wonderful friends, I have a wonderful family. I am blessed to have support and love all around me. I am thankful that those relationships will remain in the next chapter. I recall many years ago, my old roommate said to me when you think about someone do you see them in the future, if not then why waste your time? Why hold on? She has never said truer words. Change is good, but it can also be painful for you and for those around you. Regardless, I am ready for change! Finally, I get this chapter was about my growth...lessons...it wasn't a roadblock for the future...it was a springboard....all apart of the journey. Thank God, I dont have a reprobate mind....I am able to see how God loves me, receive his convictions and his promises, and never lose faith that I am one of his own. Even on my darkest days....I know God is there...HE keeps me. My mother has a card that she framed and on it there is a quote from Maya Angelou. It says, "God never leaves me, in my ignorance I have frequently thought I have left God, but that is all together impossible"....as India.Arie says "....you better thank God for that!"
Spring is here...... and I'm ready!
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming~ Diddy
For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11 (New Living Translation)
Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare. Psalm 40:5 (NIV)
